November 12, 2007

September 9, 2007, I received a call from my son. “Mom”, he cried! My heart sank! His best friend had just taken his life. He explained through his tears that his friend had called minutes before pulling the trigger and announced his intention. He asked my son to promise to take care of his wife and 5 children after he was gone. My son did everything he could think to do, in this moment, in his attempt to talk his friend out of it. While he was on the phone he motioned to his fiance’s daughter to call the police, hoping they would arrive and prevent what was about to happen.

It was over, he hung up the phone and the police arrived 10 minutes too late. We were all devastated by the tragic ending of this young man’s life. “How could he do this, leaving behind his beautiful wife and family”, we asked ourselves? My son caught the first available flight to San Diego to join his friend’s grieving family.

The next morning I was in the shower when I heard, “Mom, Mom! I have made a terrible mistake! Help me!!! Please help me!!!” Yes, it was my son’s friend. He was in a state of panic, desperation and remorse realizing what he had done, only to find that he was still here, but without a body. He had witnessed the pain and suffering he had caused his family and wanted to un-do what he had done. It was too late. He had destroyed his “vehicle”.

When he asked me, “What do I do now, Mom”, I replied, “You turn to God and ask for forgiveness.” “Oh no, Mom, God will never forgive me for what I have done”, he exclaimed! He was a good man with a strong faith but in his beliefs he “knew” that what he had done was un-forgivable”. After a while I was able to convince him that God would forgive him for anything if he was sincere and encouraged him to turn to God and ask! Into the light he went!

Twenty minutes later, I was in the kitchen when he appeared again. This time he was at peace. He thanked me for helping him and said that God had forgiven him. He then asked me if I would please pass on a message to my son and his family. The message for my son was to tell him that all promises were off, for he had no right to ask this of him. He explained that he had been battling “demons” for many years and wanted me to know that he was not the one who pulled the trigger and took his life.

His message to his family was that he hoped that someday they could forgive him. He said, “Tell them to watch their thoughts. If you are not in control of your thoughts, they will control you!” He explained that it was like opening a door for these demons to come in and take over. ”Once the door is open, they will work on you, until they consume you and control you.” “I fought them, Mom”, he exclaimed, “but it was a force much bigger than me!” He was depressed, consuming large amounts of alcohol and had lost his faith in God.

He also told me where he had placed his wedding ring for his wife to find. After she found it, exactly where he said it was, she knew that it was true, that he had spoken to me. I began speaking with her on a regular basis. Each time we would talk he would come and share more with us. It was comforting to his wife, to hear his words through my voice. He answered many of her questions, gave her the understanding that she needed to heal her wounds from his passing and even guided her specifically in how to proceed with the businesses that she was now in the position to run.

The whole concept of returning to God, after suicide, being at peace and able to communicate through me was very unsettling for his family, because it was not in their ”realm of possibility” due to their religious beliefs. Yet they have now come to understand that there really is no such thing as death, that we only change form and that God is even more loving than they had previously believed. They too, are now able to receive him. They feel his presence when they call on him and can even see him on occasion.

When he is not able to get his messages to his family he will come to me and turn on my bathroom heater in order to get my attention. His messages are of a “teaching” loving nature. He wants to enlighten his loved ones to a ”bigger truth” and help them through the challenges they face in his absence. He speaks of God, love and perspective from the other side of the veil.

Apparently his sister, a doctor in Indiana, had taken her life two years earlier. His wife asked me to ask him if he was with her? He was not. He did say that he was with his father and brother but he had not seen his sister. We assumed that she may be in a state of confusion and perhaps did not go into the light when she passed. We suggested to him, that she may still be in her home. The next morning he came to me and explained that he went to her home, she was indeed there, he could see her but she couldn’t see him. I suggested that when she acknowledges the light that she would be able to see him and he could guide her home. He returned shortly after informing us that she did, and she was now with them.

It is my understanding, from the many years I have been working with those who have crossed over, that eventually we all will return to God from where we came. The Bible states that our body returns to dust to the ground and the spirit returns to God who gave it. (Ecclesiastes 12:7) However, sometimes we may need a little help from our friends.

When souls cross over they usually turn to God, see the light and return home. But if a soul is in a state of confusion they may remain in this state until they acknowledge the light. We can assist these confused souls by encouraging them to go with the light. In this light, I do believe they will see and return to God Source, from where they came. In this light, there is peace. In this light, there is love and “all knowing”. And in this light, there is “Oneness”.

Note: In Ecclesiastes 9:5 it states that the dead know nothing. Many people take this literally as truth because it is written in scripture. However, if you read it in context, it is spoken by one man who states, “So I reflected on all of this and concluded”, which is not the word of God, but the conclusion of one man.

In Love and Light,
Kerry and her Angels

Copyright © 2007 Kerry Sue Hettleman