DMC - Twenty years ago

April 8, 2008

Twenty years ago, I had the privilege in attending Shirley Mac Lanie’s Higher Self Workshop. When I first read her book, “Out on a Limb”, I was elated in knowing I was not alone in my experiences and revelations.

In those days, I did not share much of what I was learning and experiencing through meditation or of my world in practicing and demonstrating my new truth, that I had unfolded.

One day I woke up and exclaimed to the universe that I was ready to share with others what I had come to know in regard to “my higher self”. That day, I had ten people land on my doorstep expressing they wanted to know what I know and requesting I teach them. Hence, I began my first series of higher self workshops.

One couple who was attending my workshop knew of my personal connection with Shirley Mac Laine and gifted me the $1500 so I could attend her seminar. They told me, “Go and learn and bring what you learn back to us!”

Three days, I spent at the U.S. Grant Hotel, in the Grand Ballroom, with a thousand or more people who also felt the connection with Shirley. I had earlier recalled bits and pieces of a recent lifetime with Shirley where I was a dancer and she was my dance teacher. I felt so connected to her that I was sure she would recognize me and invite me up to her room for an evening of sharing, eating popcorn and watching old movies.

The seminar was wonderful and I thoroughly enjoyed being in the role of a participant rather than the facilitator. I was amazed that her $1500 seminar was much the same as my workshop, that I presented for a $10 donation, as not to exclude anyone who wanted to participate that may not be able to afford the $10. Her truth was the same as mine, her meditations and exercises were identical to mine, including the background music that she selected. It was such a confirmation to me that I was on my path and doing what I came here to do. I knew I was not alone, and I was not “crazy”.

I did not have the finances to travel to India, as she did and to experience what she had experienced, but some how, through meditation and soul searching, we had managed to come to the same understanding of life and our oneness with all things.

One of the messages she gave us was “Where there is no resistance, there is no harm”. This was a new concept for me. We all participated in an exercise that demonstrated the truth in this. When I took this new piece of the puzzle of life within to assimilate and digest, I could see how this was something that I needed to focus on and integrate into my reality I was a warrior, a spiritual warrior, and when I would see hear or witness anything that was not according to my belief, I would pick up my sword and engage in battle. I could not just stand by, and accept this “untruth” without speaking my mind. And in speaking my mind I would many times intimidate and chase away the very person I wished to enlighten. My heart was in the right place, from love, but my resistance to statements and actions from others that I knew were not true, (not true for me) caused me much conflict and turmoil in my relationships with others.

For the last twenty years I have been struggling with this one. In my heart of hearts, I know where there is no resistance, there is no harm, and I can see all the areas and times in my life where I have resisted and caused or experienced harm, yet had not been able to completely surrender and lay down my sword. I had literally created battles everywhere! I was fighting the customer service rep. for this company and that company, the waiter, the bank teller, my children, my husband and my in-laws. I knew they were wrong and I was right and believed it was my job to let them know this was so!

With so much conflict and struggle in my world, I finally got it! I finally went within and prayed to release struggle in my life! I was tired of fighting, defending “good” AKA God, and I laid down my sword. “Where there is no resistance, there is no harm!” I now know, that this is indeed true! I can allow others to be themselves, speak their truth, even if it is different from mine, and not feel the need to engage in battle. This does not mean that you lay down and allow others to walk over you or cause you harm, this means you may respond with love, speak your truth gently, and walk away if need be.

You can literally turn the other cheek! You can smile, and say, “I acknowledge our oneness, and our unique expressions as they may differ, and I accept you for who you are, I respect you for who you are, and I love you for who you are, and I choose to live in a different place than the one in which you live, a world of peace, with a God within. I speak my truth, and let it be. Do what you feel is right and forget about it!

Be true to yourself and allow others to be true to themselves. Walk away if you choose, but do not shut the door. Remain open for them to come back at another time from another space, where you may commune, you may experience an exchange from love and light. You may, or you may not, but at least you are open to the possibility. You do not need to force your will on anyone. You may protect yourself and walk away.

Do not give your power away to anyone! (Fear = False Evidence Appearing Real) Even in a situation where your life may be threatened, where there is no resistance, there is no harm. Call on your source, hold firm in your power of love, light and your truth, and see what you want to occur, a way out, a new door to walk through to safety that was not there before. As Moses parted the Red Sea for his people to cross from Egypt to the Promised Land, so can you! You can create an opening in any dark place to walk through into the light. You do not need to resist, or experience harm, you may rise above, manifest, and remain in your truth and state of inner peace.

Well, day three, at the Grant Hotel, and Shirley had not invited me to her room for fun and folly. I was crushed! I was so sure that she would recognize me and connect. I was so sure that we would have the opportunity to share and exchange. It was the final meditation before the close of the three day workshop. She led us through a closing meditation.

All the chairs had been removed on break, and we all returned to find our spot on the floor. The lights were dimmed, the music was playing softly in the background as she guided us to this place within to regroup and experience, on our own, our higher self. Our eyes were closed and we were deep within our private space, our private place, our peace within, when suddenly, out of no where, she had come down off the stage, working her way through the crowd of bodies on the floor, and arrived before me! She placed her hand on top of my head, I opened my eyes and looked up at her. She smiled, winked her eye at me, and then returned to the stage to complete this session and say good bye.

That was it! That was our exchange! She did recognize me! She did remember all that we had previously shared! She did find me in the crowd and acknowledge our connection. She had validated me and my reality and we were One! For that brief moment in space and time, we were one! And not one person in the room had known that she had singled me out from the crowd and touched me. She touched my soul, and I was forever changed.

My truth was mine, and for a moment in time, we crossed paths in this infinite plane of existence and reconnected. There was no resistance, only love, only light, only peace, in knowing the “I am”. “Be still, and know that I am God!” We are all Gods of the most high!

And remember, your beautiful path flows when you follow what you know. Lay down your sword and soar! Where there is no resistance, there is no harm!

In Love and Light,
Kerry and her Angels